I can never be her!

She is a perfect girl- who lets you be. I am someone who has an opinion and would like to share that with you.
 
She is always like- 'Ok, are you busy? That's fine.'

I am like- 'Ok, you are busy but please find time for me honey.'
 
She is like- 'I'll have you when you come to me.' I am like- 'Come to me, I want you.'
 
That's the difference.

And who wudn't want her over me...every guy would.. you do!

Please-come-back craving

The sky was filled with red clouds. The fresh-moist wind at 3:30 am was giving her goose bumps. Tiny droplets of rain dripped from the trees. She could feel the lightning and thunder far away. Everything was perfect and so she thought of him. 

Nothing she did seem to have moved him since long. No sign of him missing her!

Nightmares

She was woken up by her mom, in the middle of the night, pointed out towards the window. She saw another herself walking in the varandah holding a blue light! She looked back at her mom. The expression on her face told her that the blue-her was now inside her!!

She pulled her outside from her with all the strength. It vanished.

Her dog then came and slept beside her.

Of flashbacks, happy-endings & the reality

Sometimes she wished she was living in a flashback.
Cause then she could watch today from a comfortable vantage point.
Then the present wouldn't have hurt her so much.
Cause then she would already have known about a happy ending...?

Birth and death

It was her birthday. But there was a certain void around her. Her thankyous to everyone's greetings sounded more like a chor. She looked abnormally calm. Her smile was melancholic.

Later, when all had left she said, "I want to sit by a fire beside you."

"It's summers! All okay with you? I am worried sweets."

"Can't wait till the winters... "

He did light up a fire for her that night. It was her last.

Possibilities..

He switched the lights off and pulled the sleeping her towards himself. She smiled with her eyes shut. Today had been a beautiful evening with a long stroll on the beach.

She glowed in the moonlight coming through the window. The sound of the waves was making this moment majestic. Wrapping himself around her, he whispered, "Lady, everything was worth this..."

He had never felt so calm in his life.

Nine months

She looked at the clock ticking by. Each tick giving way; towards a new day. She wondered about the time that had passed by, feeling weak. First each minute and then it grew to heaps of weeks. She would have been a mother today had he made sweet luv to her that night than breaking up with her.

…decisions!!

And today rusts her soul…

Tonight, couple of years ago, two almost-strangers, met at a historical monument, marking their own lives with historic moments.

The night was strange but in a dream-come-true kinda way. By the end of it, she felt frozen in his car- couldn't step out. Gentle caressing of each other’s hands had turned fierce. She gave him a final hug, without realizing her head was sliding down- turning her face to his face. The first kiss that followed touched her soul. And so did- each one after that.

That’s something she misses about him the most.

Once upon a time...

It was dark, while she tried to open the door distracted by his nibbling on her neck. They fumbled through the way into the room. She stood next to him. Her back resting on the cupboard; He picked her up from the waist to bring her face next to his. And kissed her again. Her withdrawal forced him to stop and look at her with questioning eyes. 

She smiled.

She loved doing that- look at him while he was full of passion for her.

Maybe tomorrow...

Red, blue, purple. The colors of her life leaving her, were now on her body. Fallen in love to fallen on the road. She pleaded him to stay with her, atleast just that dark-moist night.

“I am not letting you go!”

He left her without even a goodbye. Never looked back.

Yes! Wounds that one can SEE, do heal!

Maybe… tomorrow…

Change

Dark clouds came from nowhere and masked the sky. It started to rain in the middle of summer.

Suddenly it changed everybody’s mood. Happy and chirpy buzzing the floor with sounds, words and laughter. Just a little off from the regular changes a lot.

He didn’t call after dinner that night.

Colorblind

Black was her favorite color. From her dress to her coffee, she preferred that. If she had her way, she would paint all the roses in her garden.

May be, after all these years, he knew at least that much about her. He left her with a black eye in all darkness.

Hopeless

Slow slurry sounds made her realize she had kept even her dog awake so late.

What was she doing anyway-going over the past half decade of her life once again! Trying to find that one place where she had gone wrong. Reason that made him leave.

There was no hope for her now.

Nightmares

She sat next to him in the field. As he talked to her, she could see the naïve and innocent him, without really listening to what he was saying. And then she saw another him playing cricket a little far away- rugged and brute.

She woke up.

Anything to feel close to him- even nightmares!